Simple prayers are the best because my words get in the way. No one has ever accused me of being a woman of few words, though I have tried to be a woman of less. Maybe sometimes - no definitely sometimes - I complicate prayers with too much vocabulary. I get flustered and the words fumble out sounding impressive or hollow or planned.
This advent season, my shoulders have a humble slump and it is making me appreciate simple prayers and spelled out liturgies. Because my words aren't anything special, nothing revolutionary or new is streaming from my cyber pen. I am one in a million breaking winter silence with thoughts from my fickle, foolish heart. I join a history as old as the sun - a history of people who speak and explain and write and ponder. And we have many, many words to evidence our legitimacy... as word lovers.
I always wonder if we can come about true humility by way of humiliation. Can a person be truly humble as a result of feeling truly humiliated? No one loves humiliation. I try to stay away from it and all the rosy cheeked aftermath, but it still sneaks up on me with regular rhythm. I am always saying the wrong thing and doing the wrong thing and both at all the wrong times. I know being awkward is all the hipster craze these days, but (let's be honest) no one enjoys being humiliated.
And so my slumped shoulders find me meditating on the Messiah, knowing I am a little drummer boy with a pen and paper - standing at the entrance to the stable of my King.
I don't have much to bring and even my words are weightless and wilty sometimes. What I do have to offer is sometimes the very thing that humiliates me. I am walking with those ancient wise men, following the miracle star to meet my Messiah, so that the Messiah can meet all my messes.
I lit the third advent candle today with slumped shoulders and a thankful heart, because I am not impressive and I do not have to be. The Lord was gracious to send a Savior, One who could handle all the words in the world - all the things we think we have to offer. I am thankful today to pray a simple prayer, believing God is the something special about advent and Christmas and salvation and redemption.
Christ is what makes this season glorious.
And my words cannot make more or less of that. So, I pray a simple prayer with slumped shoulders knowing the Lord cares tenderly for His children. He is gracious to invite me to worship at the stable and at the cross with my slumped shoulders, with my pen and paper.
Lord, find us faithful and find us ready. Amen.