This Monday morning is a fox in the vineyard. Things "begin" on Monday morning - the week, the work, the schedule - but we all know nothing ended on Friday. We just pushed pause so we could smile and forget for two days. At least that seems to be what everyone hopes our weekly system is set up to do: work for five days, forget about work for two days, and then start work again.
I have never had a job where that cycle is successful. Because working with people means working inside relationships and I would do very poor work if I severed relationships on a weekly basis.
So, this morning I woke out of a dream thinking about the court hearing at 8 am and about the meetings in the afternoon because they had been on my mind all weekend. These aren't appointments, they are people and that feels heavy.
The antidote for anxiety is not reason, though many well-meaning people have lectured me on boundaries and work/life balance.
The antidote for anxiety is the promises of God. It is a medicine that doesn't take away the illness, but overcomes it. The promises of God are trustworthy and they follow us. I cannot go to a place where God's promises cannot reach. He is here, inside this Monday and He knows about the foxes. He knows about all the evil plans to steal my joy.
He knows about my anxiety and He knows His promises can overcome it. He is good to me. In His sovereign will, He is good and can only be good to me.
Today is about believing God is good when the foxes are in the vineyard.
This song by Audrey Assad sings the overflow of goodness and it will be my reminder all day long.
I put all my hope in the truth of Your promise and I steady my heart on the ground of Your goodness When I'm bowed down with sorrow I will lift up Your name and the foxes in the vineyard will not steal my joy
because You are good to me, good to me
I lift my eyes to the hills where my help is found Your voice fills the night--raise my head up and hear the sound Though fires burn all around me I will praise You, my God and the foxes in the vineyard will not steal my joy
because You are good to me, good to me Your goodness and mercy shall follow me all my lifeI will trust in Your promise © 2013 Audrey Assad Inc (BMI)