There is a record repeating inside your head. I don't know what your record sounds like, but I can tell you mine. While baking and biking and bantering with my dear friend this weekend, I leaned in to hear all the layers of God's grace. While running and laughing and backyard bonfiring, I tried to feel the beat of His provision for my soul.
Some things are too precious to pare down into typed phrases... the music rightly refuses to be smashed into lyrical lines. But as much as beauty transcends structure, it also acquiesces in a way that allows us to see and hear the glory.
Ok, enough of the abstract.
Today the words of Psalm 18:30-31 gave lyric to the melody I've been hearing for the past week. Deep inside the anxious moments full of questions - those moments that threaten to steal beauty's song (When will I move to NYC? Will I have a job? Am I stupid for relocating across the country? Is God's grace deep enough to reach me when I'm stupid? Money - do I have to make it?), God is there. Deep inside the moments where I don't know how to rightly enjoy all the gifts - when I am drowning in blessings and beauty and grace - God is there. As sure as Mt. Everest is rooted in the ground of China and Nepal, God is steady and faithful and sure. Always.
Steady, faithful, sure. Steady, faithful, sure.
This God—his way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him.
For who is God, but the Lord? And who is a rock, except our God?—
There is no debate, no blessing, no disaster, no gift, no doubt or heartache that can alter His character. Who is like God? No one. Absolutely no one can say what God can say and be truthful.
This record repeating in my heart found words today in these verses. I have been singing them all day long, trusting and hoping and believing that the word of the Lord proves true.
And as I trust his way is perfect, his word is true, his shield is refuge - as I believe these things deep inside the tangled mess of beauty/grace/anxious/doubting moments - I claim His victory over death and His provision of life.
He is steady. He is faithful. He is sure.
What a beautiful record repeating in my soul. Now, that my heart would align with the song!