I want a lot of things. No surprise there, I suppose. The intensity might change and the objects of my wanting, but there's no question: I want things. And sometimes I get what I want. I will myself to do what needs doing in order to grasp what was once outside my reach. Like the limes I picked up today on the way home from church - I wanted fresh limeade, so I willed myself to drive out of the way to stop at the grocery store. In awhile, after I type out this bit of inspiration, I will sip the limeade that was only a thought a couple hours ago.
But steadfastness does not work that way.
This morning, as we were singing one of my favorite hymns, I stayed on these lines when everyone else sang the next stanza,
Gracious God, my heart renew Make my spirit right and true Thy salvation's joy impart Steadfast make my willing heart Steadfast make my willing heart
Apart from God, my willing heart is incomplete - left wanting a faithfulness that is beyond my reach. Often (ahem, daily) my willingness wearies and wavers and no matter how sincere my resolve, I fail and fall. I will never be faithful on my own. No matter how much I want to be faithful, it will always be just outside my reach.
No matter how sincere, willingness does not a steadfast heart make.
There must be something outside of my will and outside of my sincerity that makes me steadfast, because my attempts at faithfulness will always fail.
What grace that God takes our willingness and adds His faithfulness to make us steadfast! Though we fall and fail, our steadfastness depends on His faithfulness and in this He never wavers or wearies.
We come willing and God makes us steadfast.
The exchange makes no sense because it is no exchange at all. We come with only a faltering "want" for faithfulness, but in Christ God adds His faithfulness and our hearts can be made steadfast.
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