scrambled

Over-easy, hard, benedict... scrambled. If you asked me to describe my life right now in terms of cooked eggs (which of course you wouldn't), I would say scrambled.

These days are like opening my eyes underwater and finding a thick, slimy mud. I'm muscling through the grime for clearer deeps, but there is a thickness trying to steal my hope. Cynicism is cheap in this business where skeptics are trained by years of disappointment.

Working with broken people means getting broken yourself.

The first line of this song sticks to me as I walk around broken, reaching out to broken, "Lay your righteousness on the table..."

It's like sitting down for negotiation and emptying my pockets of every bit of pride trying to play the cards in my favor. I don't know what The Gin House intended the song to mean, but it feels like the "fire is alive" is about hope.

After honesty and justice has wrung out all my vices, there is hope ... and not in what I've flung on the table. There is hope outside of what I have to offer.

It's that kind of hope that will hold when I pull with all my might. It's that kind of hope that is secure when everything is scrambled.

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