it's a [good] conspiracy

Well, right as I was walking out the door this morning to the field, I got a call. To be honest, I couldn't quite understand it all, but I did get, "We've gotta work on the ... and we won't be up 'n runnin' right 'way this mornin' ... I don't know how long it'll be ... but I'll give ya a call." I'm kinda bummed. I had my lunch ready and my coffee almost in the travel mug. I'm more bummed because this is a perfect morning for harvesting. Clear skies, sunshine and a chance to break out some serious layers to shield off the winter-ish breeze. I guess I'm even more bummed thinking about Eeyore trying to figure out and fix the problem in time to tackle the rest of that 90 acres like we planned.

On the flip side, I've got a little time to write. I've been farming by day and nannying by night, so I'm nearly worn out when I finally settle in. Yesterday was particularly stressful because Eeyore came over the radio, "Hey, Caroline? Why don'tcha follow me 'round ...I'm gonna outline this field and I'll dump 'long the other side there ... This'll be a real test of your driving skills ... I don't want you hitting corn, but I don't want you fallin' in the river either."

On the radio I said, "Tests make me nervous!"

In my mind I said, "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT "TEST"? This whole thing has been a test and I'm not just talking about my emotional well-being after returning from a developing country to be rejected by countless jobs and still uncertain of my place in the world. I'm also talking about driving a tractor at all. Now you're telling me I've got to squeeze into a six row path with certain death on one side and certain employment death on the other?

Of course, I went. And he wasn't kidding. I felt certain some of the corn was unfairly leaning out in my path and the steep ravine was unfairly jagged and unpredictable. With nothing short of near-hernia, I made it and felt pretty accomplished.

This whole thing (being somewhat professionally stuck) could be a big conspiracy to keep me humble and I wouldn't be human if I wasn't fighting it. Speaking of conspiracies... when I'm not following Eeyore around in the tractor or cracking jokes with Partner, I'm either reading or writing or doodling or all three.

I've already started writing/doodling my Advent Conspiracy list! If you don't know what Advent Conspiracy is, check out the video below. The idea is that Christmas ≠ consumerism, so our preparations should reflect that. If we give gifts of presence (time together), then what we treasure is each other and not just something in a box! I also try to make most of my gifts (which can get tricky for the boys in my family) and this year I have a new source - Pinterest. There are so many clever and crafty ideas - from baked goods to stuffed animals from old gloves! Anyway, apart from enjoying people more and tapping some of the creative genius we all try to ignore, we also save money by giving this way. The Advent Conspiracy suggests there are some really amazing things we can do with it!

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[AC] Promo 2011 from Advent Conspiracy on Vimeo.

So, maybe it's a good conspiracy that I'm farming... and even that I'm able to take moments like right now to process ... and apply for yet another job.

let LOVE fly like cRaZy