who am i kidding?

I can talk a big talk, jump a big joy, and sing a strong song... but, today I'm humbled because my sin still tangles me. I'm frustrated... and that hour workout did nothing to chase it away. No surprises there.

Songs that got me through today: Sara Groves' new album - seriously, do yourself a favor and chime in with the ladies of this prison to sing the songs of Christmas. It's a privilege, to be sure. You can download the album for free on her website! Brooke Fraser's song Flags breaks my heart because it forces me to dig deeper and cling to God's promises. I've got to believe this today.

"You who mourn will be comforted You who hunger will hunger no more All the last shall be first Of this I am sure

You who weep now will laugh again All you lonely be lonely no more Yes, the last will be first Of this I'm sure

Sia's song "I'm in here" is easily a song to get depressed to. But more than that, I am sad because she is singing a clamoring anthem of so many who are crying out and desperate, but hear no response. Lovelite is part of an amazing network of musicians called Come and Live. These guys are about glorifying God with music and making it available to us ... for free. If you passed by me at a stoplight today, you probably heard me belting this Lovelite song, "There You Are" because I needed to be reminded that whenever I am faithless He remains the same.

"And if ever I am faithless I can’t escape Your greatness From the brightest of places To the infinite spaces There You are, there You are"

Sometimes you just need some instruments in your life. For me, right now, that's Jeremy Larson's circadian cues (a sneak peek at his new album) and a song by Victoire called, "A Song for Mick Kelly." I don't know much about the latter band, just like this song (download it free here).

Lastly, I just downloaded (because of my "friend of the blog" status at Tim Challies) this Sovereign Grace album called "Sons and Daughters." That got some airplay today and I'm glad it did.

Now, I'm going to be honest. If I take the advice I shell out every single day, then I am going to go digging. I'm going to grab my shovel and dig until I find the deepest promises. Then I am going to anchor myself and brace for the storm. That's what I'm going to do, because who am I kidding? I'm pretty rotten and sinful and I need a Savior as much as my students do!